Take me home

I'm sitting here at work, have been here for just over 1 hour and I don't want to be here. Got some sleep last night but still feel quite shattered.  I honestly just feel like walking out. Nope, can't be assed today. I work with this lady whom sometimes I just can't understand.  English is not her first language and she has to teach me things. I honestly end up confused.  When I have it, she then keeps telling me more information so that I end up confused.  So yesterday she went on and on and I said to her Oh so now I am confused.  What am I supposed to do? After she talked to me like for 4 minutes.  It's certainly going to be a tough day today.  Sometimes I feel like handing in my notice, sometimes I love it here.  But I have been having strange dreams. Last night I was trying to find a new job.  It was all very confusing.  I also hope that I will not stay in IT for the rest of my life. It's just not that interesting.  I've got a few ideas of what I can do in my spare time later on in the year.  I need to take a few courses in order to do what I want to do, but at least that way I can trial a few things out and see what happens. These dreams I am having are just making life a bit more confusing. I'm not sure why, but as I remember more, I'm getting different memories flow back and then half of me wonders what I am doing here.  I should be earning mega dollars. But I have to make sure I get myself better first. With my current exhaustion, it's just a bit hard to take. I also have to pass my second exam, which I won't start studying for now until this weekend.  I should do fine, however, I know it's going to tire me even further and I don't know if I am ready for it.  I can't wait until March. That's when It's going to be truely exciting!!

The Long Weekend

Australia Day weekend was a corker.  Armed with my sleeping pills, Friday night I sensibly went to bed early for some rest. Saturday, I got up and headed to my sisters.  A spot of shopping was done followed by some trampolining, and some rest.  Sunday was great as we headed out to Torquay beach which was about 1.5 hours drive.  It was a surfing beach so that was pretty cool. That's on my visit again list when I get a car and has also inspired me to learn to surf (though as I have a busy year coming up, I've put that goal in the 08-09 bracket).  Then, later on we played badminton.  As both of our racquets broke, we had to end up playing with tennis rackets!!! Monday was spent shopping for new badminton racquets which were on sale so mega bargain there. We played about 1 hours worth in the hot sun. It was great fun but has lead to the soreness in my body today.  I'm so glad this week is a short week - Bring Friday on already!! Alas, I have to start studying so tonight, armed with my books, I will study for my next test which is closer than I actually realised!

The start of a successful sleeping pattern!

Last night was my first decent sleep thanks to the pills.  These sleeping pills that I am on are different than before.  The other ones really knocked me out, while these ones it still took me about 30 mins to go to sleep but while I was lying there, I could feel my body relax which is something I haven't feel for a while! I woke up once for some strange reason but then went back to sleep and woke up just shy of 7:30am. I have a busy few days ahead so I have to start packing my bags but I look in the mirror this morning and I see bags under my eyes. Hopefully, before Tuesday when I start work again these would have disappeared.

Pills and Favicons

I guess I haven't been paying much attention to this blog with my exhaustion and all. Well that will change shortly as I have been to the doctor for some sleeping pills. I also feel I've neglicted it as my the site that hosted my favicon for free has closed down. now I have to create a new one, but I really don't have any time for it.  This long weekends going to be brilliant - beach, sun, 30 degree heat, rain, shopping. 

Have a happy Australia Day!

Stress starts again

Well, I'm still simply exhausted and have to start studying shortly. This weekend is a long weekend and I'm busy so I'm already feeling guilty about study.  My eyes are still sore, I can't possibly take on any more information. So I have to start studying a bit earlier. I'm such a stress mess at the moment. In the weekend I went and saw 27 dresses (very funny). Went to some great restaurants last weekend. Have been doing a bit but most of all trying to relax.

I'm still hanging in there just slightly though I think.

Quick Update

Just a quick update to say I did really well in my exam, but it came at a price. I've never been so exhausted in my life. I over did it. I need a break for a week!

Crazy Dayz

OMG I had the most annoying day today. After studying all weekend (and all over Dec-Xmas as you're aware!) today was my exam day.  Just after 2pm, I headed out to the testing centre. I get to the exam, sit down, do all the yes, yes I accept this and that then I go to do the test and the survey comes up - you know the survey you get at the end of the test to say how you found the room etc so I say, No I do not want to do the survey so then the exam finishes. It prints out that I've failed and I've scored 0. So I say to the person at the centre what's happened. So I start stressing out thinking it's something I've done. They reset the test then the girl goes through the process and it does the same thing.  So then they tell me I have to reschedule my exam.  I was so stressed I nearly burst - i had to go into work and have a beer!  Someone remarked to me at least you've got one extra night to study - but I don't want an extra night.  I wanted to get the thing over with. I had plans for this evening to relax.  Give myself a break for the next week before I start again, but no, here I am doing it all again tomorrow morning. Today I had to take as study leave but now I'll be like having half a day I have to make up :( 

To make matters worse, I've got this major pimple forming on my chin. It always comes up in the same darn spot but it's one of those ones where it just hurts, this is going to be nasty!

More Dramas with flatmates

Last night about 10pm I vacuumed the kitchen and lounge. It looks cleaner but the dirt had been sitting in the kitchen for so long that you need to mop it up and I aint going there!

Okay, so maybe I'm procrastinating but I'll start studying in 10 minutes. I just came back from the shops where I picked up a lot of nuts mostly home brand, I try to only buy home brand.  When I walked in I thought shit the house stinks.  Well, my flatmate has had milk sitting there for the last week and now it has spilled everywhere - smells f*kn gross I wish he would wake up so that he can clean it up.

There's a few days until I have to take my exam. I've over studied, I'm getting nervous but this morning I woke up with bags under my eyes. I didn't do any study last night as I did some yesterday from 6am-8am and with the hectic day I had yesterday just didn't feel like doing any.  Which is good as now this morning I'm very hungry to start this!  This is going to be a weekend of study. But I must head out first and do grocery shopping so I can fuel myself for this magical weekend of study.

To vacuum or not to vacuum, that is the question

I'm still deciding that while I have the dyson on loan should I vacuum the rest of the flat. Part of me thinks I should but the other part of me doesn't. The kitchen is still messy after he said he'd clean up his dishes in December. I'm going to give my room one final vacuum before it goes back.

This week I was a bit taken a back. He asked me to get him takeaways on the way home (like I had nothing better to do!) he didn't care what kind. After I had been working all day and he'd been on the computer all day playing games. So the next day comes along, around the same time 5pm I get a text message can you get me some takeaways. When I know he hasn't even done anything during the day and I'm still waiting for the money (I said no the second time). Part of me thinks this place is just gross and untidy and then I think maybe I should clean it for them. I was horrified when just the other day I had noticed how dirty the kitchen floor actually was. I mean really there is not much floor even use a rag to clean it if you have to. And I just noticed what the floor looks like.

08 is MAH oyster

I have thought of another thing that I would like to do in 08. Well, in fact today I have managed to think of a whole load of things. One thing that just came to mind is that I would like to read less blogs this year. I'm not talking about informative blogs, but those ones (kinda like this in a way) where you don't overly like the person but you've been reading about them. I've decided I'm going to stop. It has no bearing on my life whatsoever and I only do it through boredom.

My new years resolution to be healthy is going well I feel. My skin is looking great as is my hair and due to all the hot weather I'm a lovely shade of brown. This afternoon I had my first beer of the new year (11 days in I think that's pretty darn good). It was a cascade light beer - I would like to emphasize that (maybe it's like .5 or .75 of a real beer!!)

I'm really at a point in my life where I feel really happy again (OMG I know, I can't remember when I actually had this feeling). I know life has it's ups and downs but I guess that's what makes the ups so good and I love summer.

Exams and bags

I got myself in such a state last night about my exams. I almost considered postponing them.  It’s making me really worried. Sometimes when I’m studying it’s in the back of my head I can’t seem to get away from it. So what I’ve done to make myself more comfortable with it, I have now devised a new study plan where I get up at 6am and study for 2 hours.  I started this off this morning and it has put me in a positive spin.  I know I can do it, sometimes doubt just creeps in and takes over. Today, I received the replacement hand bag. When I opened it I see it had the same defect as the old one! Great I thought, this won’t last long. I’m not even going to bother to tell the reseller that it’s got the same defect. Maybe I can manually alter the bag.

Argh

I just want to scream from the roof tops.  My exam is one week away and I feel that I am about to loose it.  Why oh why oh why does it have to be so difficult this time round?  Why can't I remember this and that about everything that I will be tested on.  Still I guess it's not the end of the world, the gods will have me pass :).  Work has been so busy I haven't been able to study there either !! Saturday = no study Sunday = hard topics which made me feel stupid.  And tomorrow, of all days, I am starting my new found healthy eating plan.  Which is why I am in the kitchen with my electric fry pan, just cooking up some chicken with a garlic and chilli rub.  I am also going out for lunch tomorrow, but as I've planned ahead, I will eat the chicken first then I won't have to eat all the fatty stuff and if we just go to a cafe I can just have a tea.  So at least that part is in my control. I do have some aspect of my life under control. Last night was terribly cruel.  I just was not tired and couldn't go to sleep.  I was just laying there. Next thing i look at the clock and it was 4:30am. I was like darn, I'm going to be so tired today but I had lots of energy which is actually bizarre, but work was so busy, I even stayed later to finish some stuff off and could have stayed much later thank god I didn't the study books await!

Tickets and Trams

Today I went on a massive hike at lunch to pick up my Maroon 5 tickets. The concert isn't for a while, I just wanted to pick it up when it wasn't so busy on that route. Yay, I got them but on the way back the tram broke down. It took about 10 mins to fix but it was 33 degrees and it was an older style tram with no air con so I was a sweaty betty. When it gets that hot here and I am in the sun for a while it makes me want to be physically sick. I get such a bad feeling. So I'm sitting there on this tram and I wondering why this guy is not going anywhere. It's not until I turn off my ipod and realise there is no noise coming from the tram whatsover. This guy pops round from the corner with a walky talky. They can't fix it so then he calls to see how long another will come along (this particular tram doesn't come very often). When they realise how long it will be they attempt to fix it. The driver gets out this long silver rod, the walky talky dude gets him to lower the thing that connects to the lines. Put it back on the lines and off we go!!

I'm adopting a Grape baby

Okay, so this may be a little gross for you all, but today I ate so many grapes that my stomach felt like it was going to explode. It exploded once down a toilet bowl, but I feel another stint coming on. Work was so busy today. Just like a normal working day, no quiet periods because of "vacationers" no, not at all.  I didn't even get any of my own personal study done!! I did however get some Gingko Biloba tablets though.  I got the best value I could find - all had the same ingredients however I managed to get the one where the bottle of 100 tablets was 1/4 full and the rest of the container was just air - I mean, why make it that big - ridiculous. 

MyHeritage Celebrity Lookalike

Okay, so here... I found something to do. I uploaded a picture of myself and here are the results: (yeah, you may need to click on the image for a readable version)

Back to work

This is a little sad, but I'm at home trawling the internet for things to look at (can't think of anything at all) because I have to go back to work tomorrow and I know as soon as my head hits the pillow, that shortly, I will need to wake up and go.  

I have just finished watching that movie Superbad (so funny) and have found some interesting articles in the papers, I read my latest horoscope at www.astrologyzone.com.  I want to be a bit more positive too this year. I used to just be happy all the time, but now I have a scowl on my face - I need to get my zen like nature back.  It really is getting there, but I just stressed out a bit over the holidays about my exams and now that it's time to go back to work, I don't feel like going because it doesn't really feel like I've had a break - 4 working days holiday. That's not much at all really is it?

So here is article that I enjoyed today:

12 Steps to a brand free life 

I love this article because I'm not a branded person really. I purchase organic knickers (haha - I have some proper sexy ones in there somewhere, they just don't come out that often). I think probably the most I have of anything branded are havianas thongs.  I have clothes, but I prefer to find clothes that are a bargain.  If it's a label then fine, but personally, I believe that while you should feel comfortable in every day clothes, you shouldn't spend a fortune on them.  I have an Apple Ipod and a Apple iMac. I guess that's as branded as I get. I have no television and if I did it would be a small LCD - not one of those stupid plasma screens that actually use a lot of electricity to power them. And, I am all for sacrificing purchases to save the climate. We shouldn't be that greedy after all.  My flatmate tells me (he is only 21) why should he care because he won't live to see it.  Sometimes, I just can't be bothered to "bond" with someone so young.