That Guy is back

My mum has been over and this week my Dad is coming over in time for my birthday. But this morning I received a text which pretty much made it the highlight of my day. Now today I had an exam which I aced so that was fine but after the 1.5 hours of reading this text message my mind started to wonder………and this was before the exam.

Here is my rollercoaster:
So you may remember that there was this guy a while ago who doesn’t live in the same city as me and till this day I just think he’s probably the best male I’ve met in a long time. And for me this is crazy because it was a one night thing but as I do, managed to stuff it up to a point the next morning. I acted like a totally different person but he wanted my number and I thought OK. I don’t normally bother giving them anything the next day! And I said a bonehead thing at the elevator and saw the look on this face and thought Oh shivers. I’ve just ruined it. Anyway, I wondered and wondered and wondered if I’d ever hear anything from him and while I could relate him to a few Armand van Helden tracks. I didn’t hear from him. I kept going through my mind to remember anything I could about him. I met him late at night and was out with an old man I used to work with. Well, it was one of those like no, he’s too good looking, is he looking at me. I haven’t met many men in this city I actually like so for me it was a bit strange. I had been out for hours, drinking, dinner, drinking. While he told me he didn’t think I’d had much to drink (thank god) I couldn’t remember anything about him. What his name was anything at all. I remember we danced to Getting Jiggy with it (that song has never been the same since), I remembered we had this funny moment with Crowded House in bed and that the night was quite passionate and I had immediately felt so comfortable with him. I didn’t have his name or details so I had no way of getting in contact with him and I so badly wanted to. And now this morning, he is available tonight and Friday. Which is brilliant. I can’t do today as I’m getting the house ready for dad, but I’ve already advised people that Friday night is out. Gosh, I hope I stay with him on Friday.

But now I’m on a rollercoaster. For the first 1.5 hours I was jumping around the house so excited. You couldn’t wipe the smile off my face. Then, I was thinking, oh how much can he remember of me and how many other girls were there that week. Just stupid things are going through my head. This is a big change for me because for him I’m willing to actually put myself out there and if it results in me getting my heart crushed or just generally looking more stupid than I do, I’m ready for it. I can’t wait to see him again. But he may also have a girlfriend and just doing the out of town thing. I am hoping something definite will come out of it this time. Whether it’s what was I thinking about all this time, he’s nothing much or OMG I am so crazy about him at least I will know instead of me thinking oh he never called. But on the positive, he is in the city and wants to meet up. I don’t really know what his plans are, but I might book a restaurant just in case. What’s funny is that I lost a whole load of weight and have put half back on so I’m hoping to be a decent size when he sees me however he won’t really notice I guess because that was ages ago and I was the size I am now really. Like 6 months. I hope something good comes out of this. But I’ll guess you’ll be hearing about it this Saturday. If anything, at least he will have given me a smile throughout this week just waiting with excitement. And I really am excited. I just can’t wait. It would be awful if he was like yes, I’m happily engaged, but just wanted to catch up. Then I know I shouldn’t have bothered haha.

I’m extremely aware that I’m over thinking this whole concept and that it’s just a female, male issue. But I rarely meet people I like. The last time I was this interested in someone it was 3 years ago and while he turned out to be a Jack***, I put the effort in. Jees, I can’t believe it’s been 3 years. What kind of people have I been hanging out with. As my recent lecturer told me I needed to get a life and hopefully now I can! The fact that he lives in a different city is totally cool as well.